just some random ramblings

Yesterday didn't go as badly as I thought it would. Oh the joys of multiple choice exams. You always leave thinking that you did good, because you filled in all the answers....Then it hits you harder when you get a really bad mark back. So, I guess I better brace myself for it. Not yet though, I first have to get through tomorrow morning's exam. Interesting Fact: Did you know that the Orbicularis oris is the muscle that is used when a person kisses or whistles? And the Zygomaticus is the smiling muscle. OK, so maybe that wasn't so interesting. I was only trying to multi-task, you know, study and write this entry at the same time. It takes skill...Or not.

Yesterday I asked God to help me to focus on why I'm here. Then He asked me, "Well, why ARE you here?" and I said, "to go to school." I got the feeling that that was the wrong answer. It really challenged me to think about the reason I am here; not just at University, but here on this earth. I guess this all goes back to my search for my calling. I just seem to lack motivation in every area of my life: in school, in seeking God's will, in keeping contact with friends. The frustrating thing about it is that eventually you just have to force yourself to do things you don't FEEL like doing at the time. I can't procrastinate in every area of my life, and I'm not always going to be able to do everything I want to do. I know that. I know that the path in life that I have chosen to follow will result in many hardships. I need perserverence to get through school, to follow God and to be a good friend.....I hate realizing things like this because then I know I have to change. I can't just stay in my rut anymore.

Anyways...I didn't expect this to get so intense. Oh well, my reassurance is that nobody reads this anyways. I've only told one person about this thing, and I live with her, so she probably already gets to hear all of this stuff first hand anyways.

Funny story: yesterday I was at the school studying for my Anatomy Lab exam and this dude comes up to me and asks me what I'm studying for. He proceeds to tell me that he just had that exam and he talks to me for 20 minutes about how I should study and stuff. Then he left and a minute later he came back and said, "Oh, I forgot to tell you something." and he gave me some tips for how to make the most of my time during the exam! What a guy! I had never seen him before in my life and he just randomly starts giving me exam tips. I couldn't believe it. Then later that day I was walking to my one class and who do I bump into, of all people...The dude! I laughed in my head. I think that's enough about my life for now.